Hi. Hello.
welcome to my creative and happy space. i hope you love it all!
welcome to my creative and happy space. i hope you love it all!
this week just flew on by. between getting ready for our first big trips in two years, never mind the first trips away from our girls, and beautiful weather, i feel like we hardly sat still at all.
this week was awesome and awful all at once. maya is just such a teenager, despite only just hitting eight months, a complete snuggle bug while trying harder than anything to crawl. she also popped another tooth and may have brought home a nice little cold + stomach bug situation that knocked me out from wednesday on.
I consider myself incredibly fortunate in my life; one filled with a loving and whole family, friends that I’d walk through fire for, a husband who shares my dreams, and a sweet baby and puppy who remind me to keep building that life. I’ve also learned that fortune of that nature comes with an immense amount of respect for not only the peaks in life, but also the valleys.
i finally have been able to start planting my garden, organizing and finessing the patio; i’m just ready to spend more time out there with warmer weather. i was able to sneak out on a coffee date with my best friend this week, and it was everything i needed.
last week, he had to be out, so i jumped on the chance to make one of my favorites, thank you gwyneth paltrow. i made my favorite, salmon with sriracha and lime, with kale zucchini cauliflower rice, had some sancerre, and was on cloud nine.
some weeks really stop you in your tracks. they remind you what and who is important. you remember to show up for the people you love, stop yourself to hug your baby, snuggle your puppy, and kiss your hubs.
Ultimately, vulnerability is grace. It’s letting yourself crack wide open, and doing the same for others. Quietly showing up, with love and support; you feel the good and the bad and find moments for growth, while finding beauty and grace to see the world through that lens.
we’re counting down to warm weather, and thinking about our outdoor patio and what we want to update. planning a trip to the garden store and i cannot wait to see what they have.
The truth of the matter is post trauma never ends, just as scars never go away. It fades, and then some days, it comes back full of feelings and sensations, other days are brighter and lighter because of the post trauma. Some days, I feel all of my worst feelings, spanning from isolation to self doubt, and other days, I feel more loved and supported, with no ceiling too high. For those that are ready and willing to see it, post trauma is the catalyst for beauty, for growth. Some days are dark, and some days are light.
Then life comes out of nowhere, and not only are your oldest, most meaningful relationships tested, but your relationship with yourself is tested. You’re asked to look inside yourself to be strong, to be brave, to be vulnerable, and it’s hard.
The world feels incredibly heavy right now, wrought with disheartening news that is hard to parse out. Where do we go to understand? What do we do? Watch social media and post something to feel like we’re making an impact?
