Hi. Hello.
welcome to my creative and happy space. i hope you love it all!
welcome to my creative and happy space. i hope you love it all!
All in journal
we’ve had the best summer, visiting families, taking vacation time, and showing off as much as summer has to offer to our girls. from bethany beach, to lake placid, and back to the beach, we’ve run the gamut of finding any water to cool off and splash in, any quiet space away from the sticky, humidity that is maryland, and for maya to try any and every summer fruit she could get her hands on.
I consider myself incredibly fortunate in my life; one filled with a loving and whole family, friends that I’d walk through fire for, a husband who shares my dreams, and a sweet baby and puppy who remind me to keep building that life. I’ve also learned that fortune of that nature comes with an immense amount of respect for not only the peaks in life, but also the valleys.
Ultimately, vulnerability is grace. It’s letting yourself crack wide open, and doing the same for others. Quietly showing up, with love and support; you feel the good and the bad and find moments for growth, while finding beauty and grace to see the world through that lens.
The truth of the matter is post trauma never ends, just as scars never go away. It fades, and then some days, it comes back full of feelings and sensations, other days are brighter and lighter because of the post trauma. Some days, I feel all of my worst feelings, spanning from isolation to self doubt, and other days, I feel more loved and supported, with no ceiling too high. For those that are ready and willing to see it, post trauma is the catalyst for beauty, for growth. Some days are dark, and some days are light.
The world feels incredibly heavy right now, wrought with disheartening news that is hard to parse out. Where do we go to understand? What do we do? Watch social media and post something to feel like we’re making an impact?
It’s people, jokes, smiles and small moments that build a life. Carving out time for the things that make you happy — that make you want to put your phone down and get out of the grind, off the grid. It’s seeking out the things, people, and moments that make you want to sit back and smile — to be genuinely happy. Building a lifetime of those moments — that is happiness.
We’re faced with choices of what is important to us every day — how we spend our money, our time, where we choose to be and travel to, and who we choose to surround ourselves with. The sum of those parts create our immediate world and the foundation for our immediate happiness.
Vulnerability asks us to feel everything, the good and the bad. To learn to view it and accept it, and if you’re lucky and strong-willed enough, to start growing from it. To shift how you view the world; to choose what lens you want to see the world.
We have different normals. We cope with change on a small scale every single day. We face change in large scale ways a few times in our lives, and if we’re fortunate, very few. Tapping into that vulnerability, extending grace to ourselves, is what can save us.
I’m far from perfect, but I love to talk. I love people, helping them, inspiring them, being the friend who’s always there, no questions asked. My high school best friend calls me a “giver” and this many years later, I can acknowledge she was right. I give and support all of those around me. Why not give some light in what can be a dark world, especially now?
