life lately

to say the last few weeks have been surreal is a wild understatement. i have felt all of the emotions, ranging from terrified and fearful, to pure happiness and joy.

our sweet little man, with a mind of his own, surprised us awfully early. we just barely made it 34 weeks before he decided he wanted to come, which was terrifying in its own right. the days that led up to his birthday felt spastic and all over the place, planning for his arrival, navigating the unknown, and hoping for the best case scenario.

little man was born at a healthy weight and met every metric and test he needed to come home to us, after a one week stay in the nicu. our relief quickly gave way to pure joy, knowing that our future looked like snuggling our sweet boy at home and watching the our amazing and resilient girl blossom into a caring and amazing big sister.

so. the long and short of it, life looks like sweet, joyful, chaotic mayhem that comes with a newborn and a toddler. our days have moments of quiet snuggles on the couch, toys scattered across every inch of the house while mayas imagination runs wild, spring walks with coco, and playground dates for maya.

i can’t understate how immensely lucky i feel, despite the early fear, to have my little guy here, being able to snuggle my babies tight, and to soak in our time as a family of five (obviously coco included). we’re loving the chaos, drinking all of the coffee, enjoying my favorite wines again, and going to bed early.

while this chapter of our lives feels like it came on outside of any plan that we had, we’re finding the joy in starting earlier than we thought, giving ourselves grace as we acclimate, and remaining grateful every day for both of our healthy babes.