eight weeks later...

and in updates as to how quickly time goes, its already been eight weeks since little bubba joined the family. i can’t believe how quickly that time has gone, but also am not surprised. with a toddler running around, the weather turning, and a sweet puppy (who isn’t much of a puppy anymore), our days feel non-stop.

maya has become the best big sister, and nicknamed brendan bubba. it is the absolute sweetest, and it’s stuck for all of us. she is worried about every bottle he needs, every diaper change, wants to hold him whenever she can, and insists on kisses hello and goodbye whenever she leaves for daycare without him.

bubba is doing so well. he keeps growing and spends more time every day alert. it’s been hard to reconcile how early he came, and managing our expectations for him. he surprises me every day with how quickly i feel like he’s growing, how much more he wants to eat, and the littlest moments that we just look at each other.

we’re also exhausted. this sweet little guy is sleeping so well, but still up in the night, and we still are up every morning with our sweet girl. there is not enough coffee to get into my system before 8am. i cannot stress enough that, as busy as we knew we would be, we are still stunned some days. its wildly gratifying and completely draining at the same time.

there are so many days i’m not sure which way is up or down, which load of laundry is clean or dirty, what we have in our fridge, and who most recently had a diaper change. i’m able to work out again, which has felt amazing for my mental state, and helping me have a moment to catch my breath.

despite our exhaustion, our overconsumption of coffee, and nightly wine ritual, our family has never felt more us. everyone has fallen into our new place; even on the most manic days, we end the night snuggling on the couch letting maya “read” to us. i couldn’t imagine any moment of the day without bubba, and the fact that he came early meant he just wanted to be with us sooner. i’ll snuggle him for every extra second i have with him.

happy eight weeks bubba! you’re the perfect addition to our family, and make us feel entirely whole.